Choices

Oblivion
I suppose I could stay
but I'd rather not
I'll choose to move on

Alone
I may be for now
but I'm not giving in
I won't let you win

Giving up
not in my vocabulary
stubborn by choice
with a plan in mind

Sadness
won't go away
but I'm determined
to make it through

Broken
not much strength
but I'm still standing
facing my life head on

Life
is that all you've got?
I'm not defeated
I won't let you take me down

Time
I'll just keep fighting
bloodied and bruised
but I'm still here

Hope
is what sustains me
shining dimly
keeping me alive

Winning
against all odds
nothing is impossible
I choose to believe.

Between The Miles

To Bink!! :)

Because existence can become severe
in one day,
just sense me and I'll be there.
In the minds eye,
I'm not so far away.
If you hold out your hand,
in the whispers,
I'll become the zephyr.
and besiege you.
If your eye's upon the stars,
in the crystalline darkness,
I'll become the moon.
And the light shall guide you.
If you rest upon the ground,
in the warmth,
I'll become the grass.
And embrace you.
If you turn outside,
in the wetness,
I'll become the rain.
An upon your forehead, touch you.
If you free the air,
in the light of day,
I'll become the sun.
And smile for you.

Between the miles-
if you need me.
If you need a friend.
Let me be the friend, I want to be.

The Universe

To the 3 a's(amma,achu and anu) and divs!!

Her heart is a star is a system is the universe
Her heart has a very bright, luminous beam is sparkling with the love
of a million days is lighting the sky with its dazzling beauty.
Scintillates with joy when she's happy, blazes with anger when she's sullen,
glimmers with sadness when she's morose.
Can shine like the morning star or flicker like the dying one.

Her soul is a comet is a system is the universe
Her soul is free to float and fly is unique is in a position
where any hard impacts will shatter it.
Shimmers as it catches light, is darkened with shadows,
moves like a "shooting star" when given encouragement.
Leaves its mark upon the universe, if only for a brief period of time.

Her body is a planet is a system is the universe
Her body is left behind sometimes is large
and cumbersome can be abandoned easily.
Orbits the light of her heart on a daily basis can be icy cold
or agonizingly hot is surrounded by a ring of skin.
Cycles with the seasons of birth, life, old age, and death.

Have you ever?

Nothing to say .. :)lol,to me!!

Have you ever felt,
the cold and lifeless hand of an infant,
gazed into their unblinking eyes,
and observed the face of death,
when masked in bittersweet innocence?

Have you ever touched your dreams,
and felt the simplistic joy,
of feeling them become reality,
only to abandon them,
for reasons you cannot explain?

Have you ever watched your family,
who once shared the greatest of loves,
suffer an unforgettable and unforgivable tragedy,
that will slowly, painfully, and inevitably,
tear them all apart?

Do you know, firsthand,
the evil that resides deep within the heart of every man,
every woman, and every child?
Have you seen its face as it randomly seeks,
a soul to torment and destroy?

Do you know the darker side of life,
the one that awakens you,
in the still of the night,
crying to the unknowable God's,
‘Save me from myself. '?

Does your heart constantly question,
whether humanity is obtainable,
in a world corrupted with suffering,
and where war,
is the favoured solution for peace?

If you really want to know me,
and understand the forces that compel me to move on,
then take these questions,
and take this pain,
for this who I am.

Nostalgia

You can never stop loving your loved ones,even if
they aren't a part of your life.This is to someone
like that..

After completing your daily chores,
You often feel a little bored,
You blame your teachers, your friends, your mum,
For all this sick and troubling boredom.

You shout, and then you fight,
Arguing with all your might,
Overpower and quieten everyone soon,
Exhausted, then you leave for your room.

There you sit idle, trapped in a corner,
As if it's some place of honour,
Your mind goes blank, your eyes don't blink,
For some time, your brain stops to think.

Your boredom vanishes away,
Anger flees in the same way,
Something unknown creeps into your mind,
That brings on your face, a much-needed smile.

All abuses and frowns are now curbed,
You are silent and lost; don't feel like getting disturbed,
You are here, but are really somewhere else,
Won't hear a bit, even if we ring bells.

But a minute later, your smile leaves,
And your beautiful expressions get conquered by grief,
It doesn't happen always, because of anyone and everyone,
The things just that you are missing someone.

You lie down sadly near,
Eyes closed, sealed with tears,
You're still wandering in your thoughts,
Thinking about what happened and what not.

You remember each word someone uttered,
You actually didn't hear what everyone else muttered,
You remember your friend teasing you for a while,
Which made you shy, made you smile.

Some eyes follow you even in sleep,
Some words hover over your mind even in dreams,
Try ending it all, but all in vain,
Can't relieve,it's a different pain.

So let's just leave it to the power of destiny,
Whatever happens,just let it be,
All know it's not easy,no good it serves,
But that's the magic,the magic called Love!!!

Waiting and waiting..

Waiting and waiting I'm still waiting..

Been so long since I wait,
Been so long since I want it to happen,
Been so long since I wait,
But when finally we got back together again,
You destroy it all over again,
You left for the second time without a reason,
Maybe with a reason that I do not know,
But why you have to do it again???
After so much hope and faith you gave,
But I really wish u could tell me straight,
Then pulling back without feeling sorry,
I find odd ward when I’m still hanging out with you,
But you seem feeling as if nothing have ever happen before.
Where’s the good caring heart you once had.
The words that will always put a smile to me.
But all just stop without giving signal.
As if a war of hurting had take place.
So why you treating me like this again,
At times I wish we did not make the second move again!
Although it take so long to let go of u…
I still feel the pain whenever I think about you!!

Smileeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :-D

This poem comes after Mstr.D tries all combinations to put
a smiley on the chat window.. !!Thank you for this one.. =)


The sun glistens on the water
Making it sparkle and shine
It almost seems alive to me
This touches my heart

I hear a loon cry
All alone in the night
Her song haunts me
This touches my heart

I see a rose growing in a bed of sand
Struggling to survive
It seems to cry out for help to me
This touches my heart

I hold a new born baby in my arms
Opening it's eyes to a strange new world
It's crying for it's mother
This touches my heart.

All of these things touch my heart
But none near as much
As when I see you smile

Different???

To be different,
you don't have to color your hair.
Difference is not determined
by the clothes that you wear.
It's not your music.
It's not your car.
It's not your age,
the first time you're in a bar!

To be different,
you don't need to skip school.
To be different,
you don't have to act a fool.
You don't have to do drugs,
or go sleeping around.
You don't have to be lost,
if you want to be found.

To be different,
you don't need a nose ring.
To be different,
you don't have to do anything.
You don't have to join a gang,
to be something great
and I hope this gets to you
before its, too late!

To be different,
you don't need to hide when you cry.
To be different,
you don't have to die!
You don't need to leave us,
for us to know.
This life won't be better,
after you go!

So if you want to be different,
here's something new.
Put down your guns
and know that God loves you!
The road seems long,
but you don't have to go far.
Why are you trying to be different
When Special you are!

To my son

Dedicated to someone who gives me the motherly feel... Mstr.D':-)


Oh how the years go by,
Oh how time can certainly fly.
From once just a thought in far away dreams,
now into my arms and in my eyes gleam
the presence of you.
Your laughter and smiles
which go on for miles,
warms my heart and soul.
You're growing up so fast,
as I wish each moment with you to last forever.
My little boy will someday be a man
and right by your side I will forever stand.
I will pick up the pieces when you fall,
I will hold your hand and help you stand tall.
And when the day comes when you are on your own,
never feel that you are alone.
No matter how near or far apart
I am always right there in your heart.
Always remember whatever you go through
that no matter what, I will always love you.

Despair

If only you could see what is in my heart,
maybe then you won't have it torn apart,
with a resounding echo,
memories surface from the past,
may be you and I were never meant to last
but what of these emotions ?
Why do they feel so right?
Why must you fill my thoughts every single day and night?
I turn away;
Try so hard to hide but the further I went away,
the more a part of me died
now i'm without an answer-i have not even a clue,
of what else I can do to stop myself falling for you.
I look at my life and connect the dots of pain,
pain:you are doomed to haunt me over and over again..

Who is my Dad??

My dad isn't a hero,
Known by the world.
But a hero he is,
To me, his little girl.

My daddy is God,
Who knows all things.
And better than Santa,
With the gifts he'd bring.

I knew his voice,
Before I could speak.
And loved it when,
He would sing me to sleep.

He changed my diapers,
And sat up all night.
When my body was weak
And I'd put up a fight.

He taught me life's lessons,
Of right from wrong.
And instilled in me values,
That I might be strong.

And so through the years,
Like a hero he stood.
Working to give,
All that he could.

His presence is important,
And I love to see him smile.
For no one in the world,
Can emulate his style.

And so dear Dad,
My best memory to recall.
Is the gift of your presence,
The greatest gift of all.

Forgiving means...??

To forgive
Is not to forget.
To forgive
Is really to remember
That nobody is perfect
That each of us stumbles
When we want so much to stay upright
That each of us says things
We wish we had never said
To forgive
Is really to remember
That we are so much more
Than our mistakes
That we are often more kind and caring
That accepting anothers' flaws
Can help us accept our own.
To forgive
Is to remember
That the odds are pretty good that
We might soon need to be forgiven ourselves.
That life sometimes gives us more
Than we can handle gracefully.
To forgive
Is to remember
That we have room in our hearts to
Begin again
And again,
And again.
To forgive
Is another way to say
Whatever you do
I'd always love you

TERRIFIED BY THE WALLS WE'VE BUILT

How do we end something we cant seem to start?
how do you mend an unbroken heart?
something in your eyes I'll never let go
and your place in my heart you don't seem to want to know
memories, oh we've perfected these
they're all we have
close your eyes, you're here with me
there's this sick feeling, hollow, empty
you do this to me, stealing my energy
one last moment, one last stare
one last touch before we walk out of here
but I'm yours, eternity binding our hearts together
and as you lose yours, I lose mine
soft smiles, shining eyes, I want you, I love you
I always have, were running out of time
why work for this, just to walk away?
I don't want to look back and find I lost you half way
were here again as you stare into my hopeful heart
for some reason I've never been able to let you go
and as we gaze I ask you why
you answer me with silence, your words hidden in your eyes
I cant decipher you for the first time
I know you love me but this time i need words
I'll miss you so much
and I'm terrified of how much I know its going to hurt